finding myself quite lame to post another post 4 today..today was luen b'dae..almost 4get liao..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!22 le..find a gf and get married faster la..went to aunt hse to eat the cake..the cake was HUGE!! then the cake quite nice..not so creamy..wont melt..not that sweet..not so much of butter.. it was simply delicious but i did not ate much..i am trying to lose weight..i am so fat..i hate it..i have no stamina..i oso hate it.. the cake was bought by ting ting and it should cost abt $100+.. the cake had alot of chocolate notes..and got majhong..got TOTO..got coins oso..she didn't wan to let us know the amount that she paid..haiz..must be very expensive.. quite delicious ..is 2 layers of coffee cake.. i dun wan to change places..i wan to stick to usual where i sitting with peijun.. i dont wan to be surround by guys..argh..hate it.. duno y i posting instead of doing all my homeworks and project..tons and tons..haiz..must they give so many?? haiz..i have this feeling that i am very lousy..i am so bad in my studies and i got a position of 35 where my class had 39 people..but i am going to work hard and get into top 20..but its impossible..i am oso bad in vball..jump the last and run the last.. haiz..i am going to try my best to make myself the best.. i oso wan to run very fast n jump fast..u think i dun wan that??i somehow find that i am going to hate my school.. i miss punggol..where the guys there r so gd.. i wan to b SL..but i think i wont be choose by mr chin de..haiz..cai lao shi is very gd but she is fierce.. HMT is so diff..shld i drop it ?? i really hope..if not my marks for it is always juz pass.. haiz..MATH roxs..mr lee is so funny in the sense of his clothes and he is a great teacher..ms ng is oso very gd.. i love her alot..y is life in xinmin so stress?? i wanna change myself to study hard and get gd grades..but i juz cant give up the com..i know that it can be change if i wan to..but i really cannot..i will try to spend lesser time on com..haiz..i love tuesday where we were in the class in the morning..i am starting to hate and love to collect the Math h/w..i hate it becuz the guys is always not handing in their work..and they always give reason..stupid excuses..sometimes collecting math is oso very fun..haha..mayb some of u dont feel that way la.. i am always failing my exams..and my hp money is using very fast..going broke soon le..i already spend alot of money on the top-up card..is art that important? i think i am spending alot of time on that too..mon still need go back school..very sian..cant i have a gd holidays?i wanna take a rest..i am sick and tired of everything..really tired..chessneth is getting more and more irritating..keep saying i like **** *****..or who like me and wad so ever.. getting sick and tired of tis too..y can everyone be so cheerful everyday?? i oso wan that..but go doesnt give in to me..but at least i have a happy family..and alot of people that loves and care for me like peijun and cindy and shihui and natthaporn and ruiru..they were there for me when i was alone and in trouble..they care for me and when i am feeling down..they will be there for me..sry 4 my bad temper all tis time..i will change.. i will be high everyday..i will always smile even if i am sad.. i am starting to miss mrs lau..haiz..really guilty that i have not been listening to her in class..how i wish everything starts over again..i might not even end up in tis school where everything is gd but it somehow sucks to me..sometimes it is great..but wih some irritating guys..life begin to suck..they dont change my life.. i wont let them to change it.. i will do my very best in everything ..really hope..